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I, I'm finding my heart
Sleeping in again
Back to the war for the glorious dreams
Of future's relief
I've sown and I'm waiting for my reap
I, I can't figure out
Why I'm feeling this
I'm looking for outs to release and forget
But nothing comes free
I'm pushing my conscience more in debt
How did I get so far
From the man I thought I would become
How did I make it an art
To stifle my passion for you
Raise me up from this grave I've made my home
Awaken my soul with a flame I'll make my own
I, I'm at the mirror
Searching into me
All unfamiliar and I feel deceived
I thought I'd once seen
This man that is staring back at me
I, I've got your words
Branded in my mind
Just like a curse it won't let me go
So I've got to fight
I've got to walk this broken road
You paid the greatest cost
With a price of the cross
So clean out this den of thieves
And shake every bone in me
Fill me with your glory
How did I get so far
From the man I thought I would become
But you choose to wrestle my heart
So can you hold it until it is won
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I'm scared to death of what I don't know
My weary heart is on the line
It's killing me softly
The thought that we're all going down
Everything we fight for is all a lost cause
It's too much of a risk to say
I got it figured out
Like a blink of an eye it's gone
It's a breeze in a hurricane
Like a dream in the night it's gone
We're wasting away
There's a time bomb ticking underneath our souls
We rely on the chance that we'll survive
Today and tomorrow just maybe
But there's no guarantee
Death awaits us all
We're slowly swirling down the drain
Every second spent is a second lost
And I'm broke as a beggar now
Oh wretched hearts and bones we are
Empty words can't save the day
Oh worthless bards and hopes we are
But I don't wanna stay
We've only got one life
One heartbeat
A handful of moments that define our living
Are we living?
Are we fighting?
Are we missing the heart of this life?
If there's a God we're robbing him with our breath
If there's a God every second puts us more in debt
We're running across this world
And flipping it upside down for change
But we're the change and we can't figure it out
Figure it out that this is temporary
This is a broken-down cemetery yeah
I don't wanna waste away
I don't wanna waste away
I don't wanna waste away
I don't wanna waste away
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Where is my heart in all of this
I got the numbers and the answers
The deal is done, the price is paid
But I’m half-hoping for delay
I got my hand on the plow
But I keep looking, looking back
There’s a fire in my bones
Pulsing to the beat of my soul
Still I settle
Still I settle down
Still I settle
Still I settle down
Can you rip my heart to shreds and take over
I got this contract signed in blood
The blood of a lamb I never owned
Led to the slaughter while I looked away
The scarlet letter written on my face
Made up my mind, you’re all I want
But like a drop in the sky I’m waiting for the fall
Resolved, to live with all my might
As if it were the last hour of my life
What happened to the love that robbed my heart
What happened to the fire that couldn’t burn out
I need your Spirit to change me
I need your Spirit now
What happened to the passion that stirred my soul
What happened to the life that wasn’t my own
I need your Spirit to change me
I need your Spirit now
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I wanna feel something big
I wanna be a part of a movement
That's louder than my hands
That blurs me out, yeah
Ordinary days
Playing the strings of my heartache
I've found a better life
So move on out
Oh, can we roll down the windows
I wanna feel the sun burning in my eyes
Oh, can we roll down the windows
I've been watching my lines here
I'm outta line
But something feels so right
The desert is all we see
And everyone's talking 'bout everyone else
But there's a lonely man
He’s talking 'bout water
We're statues in a room
We're stone cold but there's a rumor
That one day some of us
Are gonna come to life
I'm calling it
I'm falling in
Love
Love
All that I wanted, all that I wanted
Is in your hands, in your hands
All that I wanted, all that I wanted
Is in your hands, in your hands
And nothing nothing nothing can stop me now
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The world is running out of context
Am I the only one who feels no bliss
Who wants to risk everything
I would trade my heart away if I could gain
Just a little bit of something more
Something to live for
I don't wanna believe what I cannot see
But I'm so deceived by everything I see
All my life I thought I had it
Almost figured out but right now
Everything is inside out and upside down
Heads or tails I'm not looking, I'm setting sail
I can't let time take the wheel right now
I can't slow down, please help me out
Until I have your promise I won't let you go
I dare you to come and change my identity
Bring me humility and pain
All my life I thought I had it
Almost figured out but right now
Everything is inside out and upside down
All my life I felt this fire
Screaming through my broken calloused bones
"Your fate is not your own so don't lose hope"
Maybe I don't have this life down
And I never will
Is there someone I could trust 'cause
I'm honest enough to know I'm not the one
Oh I can't think myself out of this one
And I need your help if you're out there
I don't want anything else
I don't wanna believe what I cannot see
But reality has got a hold on me
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Can I be honest and let you know
I've never felt like this way before
And it's so hard to take it slow
I find it hard believing that a month went by
There never passed a day when you weren't on my mind
Whatever happened to the time
It's so easy to forget the reason behind this all
What a pity if we let our hearts burn up in vain
But by the grace of God we'll press on hard
But by the grace of God we'll come to know Him more and more
But by the grace of God we'll shine like stars
But by the grace of God we'll show the world what a God we have
And nothing can stop Him from loving us
Can I be honest and let you know
I wanna jump the gun and straight up marry you
But it's not the time, no
For all I know tomorrow may never come
But I want you to know God has a plan for you
And He loves you, doesn't matter what you've done
It's so easy to forget the reason behind this all
What a pity if we let our hearts burn up in vain
I can't do this on my own, every now and then I'll take a fall
So help me help you to find your hope in Christ alone
Oh I wanna be the one
To stumble with you to the cross
And I pray that God will give me that chance
But I pray that God's will be done
And we count all of this as loss
For the sake of knowing Him
When our hearts are weary and dry
When fear and doubt surround every side
When the answers are out of sight
Please keep fixing your eyes
On the Lamb of God crucified
Once and for all He chose to die
He'll always be there right by your side
And on that promise you can bank your life
But by the grace of God we'll meet the King
But by the grace of God we'll come together as the bride of Christ redeemed
But by the grace of God we'll have a wedding feast
But by the grace of God we'll be on our knees
We'll lift our hearts and sing that
Nothing can stop Him from loving us
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Your lies are easy to tell
You can't fool anyone but yourself
But oh what a martyr you make yourself out to be
Everyone's got the same old spell
They've tried to fly but won't admit that they fell
They've got deaf ears and minds but a whole life's worth of advice
You know you think the questions
You think you know the answers
But can't you see they don't match
They don't match up
You don't understand the words to your song
To your song but you sing
You sing your heart away
Away
And all you know is that the world is so wrong
It's so wrong but you sing
You sing your heart away
Away
Sunny days not a chance of rain
You match the weather with a smile on your face
You pose with the mannequins and you come back home late at night
Everyone's redefining their game
They're pointing fingers to avoid potential shame
Can somebody please step up and announce that the ship's going down
Don't give up, there can still be a way out
Don't let your past yell so loud
Redemption is as true as the pain
Don't settle for the good when there's a better
Sell it all and buy the field for its treasure
There's a different song inside
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It's been another dozen rounds
But I'm feeling the same as every day
I thought that this time around would be the one
And every now and then I take a look at my reflection
In the mirror to see if I've changed
If there was anything good in everything I've done
I think this dream is moving at the speed of ocean tides
But I can never wake up
These seashells make this castle seem so bright
And like a hungry drain this world is spinning me around
What a familiar sound
It won't be long before I'm gone
Everybody's telling me you can be the remedy to the world's depravity
Everybody's telling me you can be the remedy but the virus is me
I try, I try so hard to find the good in me
I take the pain to win the gain
But I'm still stuck in the same old game
I fight, I fight this war to prove myself to me
If I could be the man I see
I'd fill the hole that's breaking me
Epiphanies left and right just leave me on the moon
None of them any use
And I still haven't got a clue
To find the strength and meaning to this broken life
Or maybe I've got it wrong
Maybe love is free and it's coming for me
It’s coming for me
My days are like the grass
I'm chasing the wind in every single direction
With every pleasure every laughter
I drugged my heart to sleep
But still at night my heart can never rest
And when my efforts meet my fate
My efforts always surrender
What's the point, what's the point, what's the point
Can I drink and be satisfied
Can I earn enough to buy enough
Can I achieve unconditional love
I was never the remedy
I was always the disease
Now I'm pleading on my knees
Save me from this monster I've become
You were always the remedy
When I threw myself away you still love me
I don't deserve to be this free
But here I am, you can have all that's left of me
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Can we start from the very beginning
When I knew your name and you didn't know me
Oh how I paint these in my mind so beautifully
Every chance I had I checked the forecast
The hands that lagged so infinitely fast
Oh how the weatherman led us straight into our trap
I sleep it again, it’s too late to send
Words misled by common sense
I seal it again when I read to the end
Another letter left unaddressed
I’ll leave it with the rest
Who was the one who said
"Best to leave it unsaid"
He turns my spine across the fire
Over and over
I hope you come to think
I have finally moved on
And you'll start to forget me
Over and over
'Cause it takes two to come together
But one to forget
I'm like a microphone in an empty cave
A widow wide awake waiting at the grave
A thousand dancing shooting stars on a cloudy day
I'm like a fallen tree and no one's around
When I quake the ground do I make a sound
My lungs are shouting for some time to talk this out
There's so much I wanna say to you
When you look me in the eye I'm dying inside
Is it too much to say that I miss you
I don't wanna know so hurry up and walk on by
Hurry up and walk on by
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We are all tied down somehow
And I'm no exception
I can't find my way out
And we are all too proud to stand out
And say to the world that we live in a ghost town
Can you say with a steady conscience
That you're almost halfway there
Can you share with me your treasured secrets
'Cause I'll admit that I'm stuck on the first square
You say you're better than me because you got it all
I say we're all the same because all is loss
Politics, religion, semantics
Come and go as fast as heart attacks
You say “I earned, deserved it”
Then you go tearing off the wrap
Was pride the string attached, whoa
We're running around in this airtight room
Suffocating, waiting for the weakest to pass out
We come back around to this deja vu
You know pride and fall always come together
Together
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What a curse we are to ourselves
This never ending burn caves us inside out
Listen to the war racing for our fate
Listen to the nothing
We should be used to it by now
I long for a sign
In these empty scribbled lines
Tangible for the simple and the wise
Open my eyes
Never searching is just blind
So let me see anything tonight
How we fight to survive our minds
Circling a life so desperately deeply dry
I wanna be alive but sometimes, oh sometimes
Only grace can stop our building hands
We just gotta realize
We can't build in the sand
I labor my days away
Aching for some earth to taste
With my dirty hands I create
My underrated chains
But give me something more
Something to die for, possibly live for
I wanna be man enough to take
This gift of love I abbreviate
This could be the perfect love song
If I loved you the way I say I do
And you are to me the perfect love song
'Cause you love me the way you say you do
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The Carnival Ride
04:07
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I watch you draw the line all over your eyes
Now you can't even tell
You've stapled your hands
To that carnival ride
You're moving faster than lightning and every ride
Outlasts the bell
Sooner than later your addictions will break the ice
Love is right around the corner
Love is right around the corner
Yeah all you really wanted was me
So tell me why are you pushing away
Yeah all you really wanted was me
So tell me why are you pushing away
You know every time you put your life to the lighter
I was bleeding along
The more you brush it aside the more it flows from my side
Did you think that I left you on that road to die
And you could play your chips along
Well you’ve never been more wrong
‘Cause I can see straight through your disguise
You were meant for more than this, don't you know
You're rotting away slowly softly and I'm still waiting for you
So I come back home, I still love you
Throw your ways aside and I'll come running to you
Love is right around the corner
You don’t need to earn it
Just believe it, receive it
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Every piece of my heart was given away
Trying to find something that could fill it
And the more I lost the more I raised
'Til all of my chips—I couldn't resist—were thrown in
Here I thought I had played it safe
I just made a few bad investments
I think I'm out of people to blame
And all of my wits—they caused all of this—lie broken
And like the wind I couldn't ever find a home
Oh satisfaction
Why are you so out of reach
And I just wish I had listened to my heart
When I still had it
Now there's nothing left to bleed
If there was anything left in me
That could win back what I wasted
It wouldn't scratch the surface
Of the debt I've achieved
And now You're running after me
I'm everything but blameless
This prescription for collision
Is all that I see
I've tried and I've tried and I've tried to change
But it's like I'm spending time in debtor's prison
My biggest fear is I won't know what to say
I can't pretend—oh this is the end—I didn't know it
You say “Did you think you could outrun grace
Or that I loved with mere conditions
'Cause what you do can never shake
Who I am is who I am and I love you”
I part my lips but I've got nothing to say
Guilt meets forgiveness
A better joy will never be
For I have sinned against heaven and before You
I lavished my inheritance
Still You lavish Your all on me
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Slow Down
02:50
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Honey can you take the kids to school today
Breakfast's on the table, leftovers from yesterday
I've got no time, I'm already late
Can you make it home for dinner at eight
We'll see, I'll race the clock on the freeway
But please don't rush, there's heavy rain
They'll call to see the rent is paid
I won't pick up, I'll be out anyway
Sit back just think and listen
We've got time on our hands
So slow down
Mommy look at the dinosaur I made
Food is for eating not for playing games
How come I got so much on my plate
Get that frown off of your face
I think Daddy cooks with better taste
But he's not here so I cooked it my way
Where is he anyway
Chicken always tastes the same
Hey don't you know it's half past eight
Sorry honey I didn't drive it safe
I told you watch the rain wait what did you say
It's hard to talk with the glass in my face
Stop it stop it I'm not playing games
I love you like I did our wedding day
Baby you gotta make it out okay
God gives and takes away
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I wake up dry this morning
Raindrops got me boarding this train
Bound for nowhere
I might as well take my share of warning
In case life hands me thorns
In this drain down to nowhere
No one said it'd be easy
I was too afraid to come tonight
But know I tried my best to come on time
I couldn't leave my presumptions behind
I just had to chase these gilded lies
I couldn't hear or open my eyes
But I feel the fire that you bear
When I'm by your side
I can't believe I'm drowning
Safe and easy rounding
Won't fly forever
Kings and knights and crowns and
Ladies never frowning
Don't rhyme forever
I wanna say I am trying
But heaven knows I'm just nudging my reality
Only grace can break this apathy
So I'm done with who I am
Here I am
I'm still afraid to come tonight
But I'll try my best to come on time
Please help me leave my presumptions behind
I don't wanna chase these gilded lies
So tell me louder you're opening my eyes
I feel the fire that you bear
When I'm by your side
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There's a child on the street without a home
The father's in the slammer, the mother couldn't pay the loans
There's a child who never had a name
Auctioned in the market, calloused to his daily chains
Why aren't you listening?
Why are you hiding your face?
Can you wake up and see this world is overflowing with pain?
All of your children are dying every day
All of our religions are getting us nowhere
Getting us nowhere
Will Sunday
Will Sunday ever come?
There's a child in a garden fallen on the ground
He knows what's gonna happen, he's praying for a way out
There's a child hanging naked on a tree
Crushed like a convict, but murderers run free
You love us
And you killed your son to show us
You have not abandoned
You have not forsaken us
You love us
And you killed your son to show us
You have not abandoned
You have not forsaken us
All of creation is groaning
All of our hearts are yearning
For Sunday
For Sunday
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I'm struggling to follow you
My heart and my flesh are far too weak
And sometimes I'm too blinded to see
I want you to be my impulse
My love and joy in every dream
And my first thought when I wake from my sleep
Can you remind me one more time all I want is you
Can you remind me one more time the best is yet to come
Yet to come
I'll wait for the day
When I approach your throne so golden
And I'm never ever gonna shift my eyes
And I'll wait for the day
When it's your hand I'll be holding
And I'm never ever gonna let go
I was addicted to the darkness
But your cross has shown your glory
I can't wait to see your fullness in me
And though the storms make me forget
Your passion and your love for me
One day they'll forever cease to be
I was so hopeless
Caught in the middle
Of these walls that I built
I spent so long laboring
But you tore them down
You've taken my breath away
I've never seen this light before
And all I want is more
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Don't act like you're the only one who knows
I can tell by the way you lead the flow
Your reactions can be so predictable
I can tell because that was me years ago
Oh how I wish you believed
Oh how I pray you believe
Every step you fake
Every lie you create
I know it cuts your heart right open
It cuts your heart right open
Every second you waste
Every time you retrace
The times you cut your heart right open
His cut goes deeper than you
These lasting pains never let us go
There's no point in hiding that you can't break the status quo
This static friction on your heart
Is stronger than ever, seize your arms
The deeper you dig the bigger the mess
So back up back off give it a rest
Can’t you see your life
You’re strapped on so tight
You're an icon on the outside
You're tearing up on the inside
With atrophy and apathy
At your side
He'll say he never knew you
He'll say he never knew you
Whoa
He'll say he never knew you
He'll say he never knew you
Whoa
Come, come and drink this water
And never thirst again
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The Same Team
03:24
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I'm standing with my head up in the clouds
And there's no way of bringing me down
Or that's what they tell me
Like I'm showering I'm standing my ground
Ignoring everything I'm spinning around
Or that's what they tell me
That's what they tell me
Just look at your skin
We're on the same team
Look beyond the colors
We're not what we seem
And if just one of us backs down
We'll end this
We'll end this war
It won't be long before I burn this candle out
Or before this cave is flooded down
Or that's what they tell me
Stubborn vows of never taking chances now
Are working against us as we watch each other drown
Or that's what they tell me
That's what they tell me
I wish I could be the first to apologize
But the more you wrestle the more I change my mind
And the more I draw the line
I wish I could be the first to apologize
But the more you wrestle the more I feed my lies
And the more I regret it all
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Gummy worms are very delicious
I think they're very yummy
Think they're very yummy
Gummy worms are very delicious
I wanna put them in my tummy
Put them in my tummy
When I'm hungry
And I'm doing laundry
And I forgot my lunch
When I'm lonely
On my pony
And I'm on the run
Gummy worms are very delicious
I think they're very yummy
Think they're very yummy
Gummy worms are very delicious
I wanna put them in my tummy
Put them in my tummy
When I'm sleepy
And it isn't easy
To get my homework done
When I'm smelly
Like a body
Laying out in the sun
Gummy worms are very delicious
I think they're very yummy
Think they're very yummy
Gummy worms are very delicious
I wanna put them in my tummy
Put them in my tummy
I miss you like I missed the train
And now I'm standing in the rain
I think I'm gonna go insane
And you're the one to blame
Gummy worms are very delicious
I think they're very yummy
Think they're very yummy
Gummy worms are very delicious
I wanna put them in my tummy
Put them in my tummy
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Turtles
01:48
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Turtles are green and small
Some of them are very tall
Turtles can do it all
They like to roll in a ball
They like to shop in the mall
Turtles are hungry and eat
Veggies and ice cream and meat
They are the ones to meet
They sit in first class seats
Their homework's always complete
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Larry Lin Baltimore, Maryland
I was born in San Jose, CA, and I now live in Baltimore, MD. I am a follower of Jesus, a husband, a father to two children, a nerd, a politics and current events conversationalist, a writer, a peacemaker, and a wannabe vegan. Also, I love music, and I make music on the side. ... more
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